This is my digital notebook. A place where I keep track of my thoughts and fears and hopes about becoming and being in the world. Where I try ideas and see how they might fit -- "Me"? A place, also, where I try to dare to be. show. more abstraction, more time, more space, closer observations of what I feel, think, fear and long for.
i woke up
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that's what happened
not up
not down
plain
that intense feeling
of seeing clearly
not bright
not muted
but intensely plain
an intensity caused by Absence
i can't remain plain
a longing for intensity
for pursuing ideas
for making them
come to life
i can't remain up
the struggle
with reality
the desire to go further
and to find
that solid ground has disappeared
i can't remain down
being angry at
what happened
realizing
your mis take on
reality
morphing into anger
at your self
at what you know
at what you are
at your being
at your becoming
it is too tiring
takes all your energy
away
until you are beat
worn out
then it stops.
I surface